"Past Feeling"

This morning I woke up to this....

Already in emotional overload, my first response was "Please, please...NO MORE!..."  I don't want to FEEL anything more!  With the required phone call after phone call after phone call that was necessary to take care of the lovely incident,  the mind numbing was actually easier than I thought it would be.   This automated and scripted world we're living in makes it cake...but still, words from the Book of Mormon have been running through my mind all day.   In Moroni, Mormon speaks to his son about the wickedness of the people "without principle" who were "past feeling."  It is people that are numb to feeling that do things like this...or people seeking to be numb from the next drug fix that our stolen DVD player is now financing.   It is Satan and his followers who forfeited this mortal experience, an experience that has everything to do with conquering and mastering these bodies of ours with so, so many feelings.  The answer is clear that it is not good to seek to be "past feeling..." so instead, I'll write...and cry a lot... and beat all the numbness in the world by trying to be a person of principle and a person who "feels..."  feels consequences to choices, feels when I can't do it all by myself, feels love, feels sorrow... and a person who shares those feelings with others... on my blog.  :)  sorry guys!   

Comments

SuSu said…
I'm sending hugs and so sorry you had to have this experience. This has happened to us twice. Once my car; not much in the car but my CD's....they were mostly church CD's.....not sure that is what they hoped to listen to. The second time was while we were on vacation with our son and his family; it happened in San Diego in the church parking lot while we were in church! Go figure.
June 16, 2010 at 9:09 PM
Mike and Julie said…
What a feeling of being violated! I'm so sorry, you certainly don't need any more adventures. Mike and I had this happen when Justin was a baby - they hit the back window of our campershell while we were parked outside our uncle's home. What they didn't know is that we were sleeping in the back of the truck with Justin. I'm not sure who was more frightened - but I hope they soiled themselves when they heard us scream! I hope that the repairs go smoothly and you're on your way home soon. Hugs from me, too!
June 16, 2010 at 11:56 PM
hilary said…
I'm so sorry this happened! It reminds me of when our car got towed a week after I had emergency surgery (a little different, but similarly frustrating). I hope that it gets fixed quickly and thank you for the reminder that it is good for us to feel, even when it hurts! You are a wonderful woman.
June 17, 2010 at 8:10 AM
Austin said…
I think we exchange crimes. Just so you know, you started it. I was robbed on your territory, then your property was vandalized on mine. We are even. DONT start anything else. Please. P.S. the car made it home like a champ. I was the slowest one on the road, but I have a favorite activity now: when the cars tailgate me, I spray them with my windshield wiper fluid. I've gotten several different amuzing reactions, and 9 times out of 10 they dont follow as close afterwards.
June 20, 2010 at 3:47 PM
The Scotts said…
I've had this happen more then once. You feel so violated. Sorry it happened to you.
June 25, 2010 at 9:42 AM
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